"They're delicate and their appearance is friendly."

I'm about to go watch The Science of Sleep. It's a beautiful movie.

Some favorites from today.

Woke up at 12:30 today.
I found a yoga DVD my mom and I bought like, last year. We did a couple sessions together and then just forgot about it. Today I did one of the 10 minute sessions and I think I'm going to start doing it daily, for strength and stuff. I mean, today I was having trouble with back bends. I need to loosen myself up more.
People are always talking about how yoga changes every aspect of your life. I don't really believe it, but I'm willing to try. Mostly, it's just so I can get some kind of daily activity fit into my life. If I can wake up every morning before school and do 10 minutes of backbends to wake me up, that would be way better than some energy drink.
I'm not trying to be some granola head, even though it's a pretty respectable lifestyle, I'm just trying to find a solo exercise that agrees with me. I'll still try and run a few days a week, but I need something more.

Holy shit. Viva la Vida is a fantastic song.

I'm not gonna lie; I like the photo options on the mac.
I feel a lot better today than yesterday. I had a good long talk and now everything is better. Not all okay, but it's better.
I can't wait until Jessica gets back. We're going to make it a fun weekend before school starts up again. I don't know what we're doing yet, though. She hinted at something fun and I think I'm down. :0
Plus, it's nice having a girl around to talk to.
<3 girl talk

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Really starting to like David Bowie now. I listened to the Greatest Hits, but I knew most of the songs form the radio and movies and things. The Man Who Sold the World and Suffragette City are probably my favorites. Probably some of the most well known of his, but they're well known for a reason. Sweet Thing isn't bad, either.

Its safe in the city, to love in a doorway
To wrangle some screens from the door
And isnt it me, putting pain in a stranger?
Like a portrait in flesh, who trails on a leash
Will you see that Im scared and Im lonely?
So Ill break up my room, and yawn and i
Run to the centre of things
Where the knowing one says

Boys, boys, its a sweet thing
Boys, boys, its a sweet thing, sweet thing
If you want it, boys, get it here, thing
cause hope, boys, is a cheap thing, cheap thing

Im glad that youre older than me
Makes me feel important and free
Does that make you smile, isnt that me?
Im in your way, and Ill steal every moment
If his trade is a curse, then Ill bless you
And turn to the crossroads, and hamburgers, and

Boys, boys, its a sweet thing
Boys, boys, its a sweet thing, sweet thing
If you want it, boys, get it here, thing
cause hope, boys, is a cheap thing, cheap thing

Music always makes me feel better.
Jack Johnson, "Blue Eyes", Matt Costa and "Sunshine". And Brand new is good for dwelling on shit.

I don't really like Nirvana a whole lot, but I appreciate their cover of The Man Who Sold the World. Honestly, it's relaxing. Other 90's bands I'm appreciating: Garbage, The Cranberries, and Smashing Pumpkins. Sonic Youth isn't too bad, but they're 80's, also. After I saw Juno I had to steal my mom's album of So You Want to be a Carpenter and listen to Sonic Youth's version of Superstar- which is great. Listen to that and then 1979 by Smashing Pumpkins and you have a good couple for night driving. Or just sitting outside at night.
The first night in Greece, I sat on the balcony and played those 2 songs. I got to look at the people walking to the night club in small groups speaking rapidly in greek. They were so beautiful in the light of the street lamps. When I looked over the rooftops, I could see down in to the Sea of Olives. I don't think I could trade that image for anything.
I'm jealous of the people who live there, and I wonder if they truly appreciate it every single day. I have pictures, but it's much better in person.

I was so prepared to like her and I was actually impressed for a while.

But when you think you're the shit, I'm not down. I'm finding another model.

Lazy Sunday today. If I was in the same mindset as 4 weeks ago, I would've run a 10-mile race today. My, how I can change my mind. I'm almost impressed with it. I need to clean my room today and attempt to reduce the clutter. John just got done with a ton of boxes so I think I'll just put a bunch of stuff in those.

The world's a big fatty fat whale sitting on me. What is this world coming to when boys gossip like sewing circle biddies? Men have tunnel-vision and can only see one view, so they can't adequately sum up a situation. It's mob mentality driven by dude loyalty.

I feel deja vu kicking in again. Every time I start liking someone (especially a friend) they start pursuing someone. Or they get a girlfriend. And theeeenn, they ask for advice from me.
And I hang around with advice, patiently waiting. There are so many fish in the sea. All I can do is move along until they're free again, and then I can be sure whether I like them or not.

My days are long and enjoyable. Now that my bestie is back in town I feel happier. He's like a big light explosion wherever he is.
I'm applying for a job at the used books store. Now that I've got the idea in my head, I really want to work there. i can just sit and read all day if nobody comes in. I just inventory books and put them on shelves... and then I can read or something. It could be a great environment to do homework in, too. Yesterday I picked up The Illustrated Man, Alexander the Great, and On the Road. Those are to read after I'm done with The Once and Future King for school. Honestly, I started that book at the beginning of the summer and I'm not done yet. I just recently started cracking down on finishing. I'm glad I did, because the book is fantastic. I also started reading Alexander the Great last night just as a side read, and I think I'll end up hating the man. What an arrogant ass.

Anyways, look what I found! It was in my bathroom and I finally caught it. For some reason, every time we open the front door, 2 of these buggers keep getting in. I caught it with my sock and then put it in a drinking glass.


Preparing my mind for school. Soon, I'll start cleaning my room and reducing clutter. Cluttered room means cluttered mind, which makes me grumpy and lazy. Robert being extra ass-like lately is not helping.

Senior year is fast approaching and I'm excited. It will definitely be different, especially the people.

"Let's make love again instead of eating"
I'm in a drifty, earthy, summery, sunny mood. I'm in a watery, sweaty, sunkissed, heartbreaking mood. I'm in a nature mood. I'm in a deep-breathing life mood. I'm in a mood that would be put to better use if it wasn't dark outside. And next week if I'm in this mood- while I spend 5 hours for four days in the church secretary office- I think I may go crazy. It felt good to be outside and being everywhere. It felt good to be around new people. or around the same people in a different arrangement. I feel good. I'm in a feel-good mood.

Went out running again. Not as successful as last night. I'm really tired today. I think I ran about 5-6 miles yesterday so that's understandable.
I ran about 3 miles down Waterway and then turned around. And then walked most of the way home. I was hurting. :(
Oh well at least I know I can jog for a while.

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I'm not as outgoing as I'd like to be. I want to fix that.



Tonight will be the 3rd night I go running. this is possibly the most times I've voluntarily run consecutively by myself. It's 15 more days until cross country starts. And then 9 days after that until the Wawa 10 miler.

Also, I'm trying to think of what to do with my new film. I'm thinking of a couple people to model for me. Not sure yet, but I asked Sandra. She seems to know something about posing, and I love when someone can pose because I also HATE trying to direct someone who has no idea what they're doing. The only problem I can predict is that she may be awkward or introverted around me. Anybody I ask- if I'm not good friends with them- I might need to take for coffee or something first.