Today I left my notebooks on top f my car and they flew all over the place.

I'm not really embarrassed. Probably because worse things have happened to people.

Right now my best friends have broken up. I can't say I never thought it would come, because all things come to an end, but I thought it would be much later.

Everything she said she was feeling felt like deja vu. I could honestly tell her I knew how she felt. Unfortunately, no advice could be given from me because these are things we just have to move on from. It sucks so bad and not because we're sad for ourselves, we're just sad for the person we love.

I see such a mirror image in her.

Beach House lyrics

I was sitting on a rock, just waiting for a key to sleep inside the house of old serenity  So I climbed onto your altar begged, please don't let me falter, we'll put our oaths at stake in a heaven that all icicles make.  All my devotion,  compelled by an ocean, of all the years to come of all the years to come  So we'll work until the night is quite what once all our dreams were like; doing all the housework, returning all the schoolbooks, for good  Let's go on pretending that the light is neverending we still have the summers to be good to one another, yay hey

Everyone knows

the day as it goes

gets shorter and shorter

but the grass grows.

The older I get,

the shorter I live,

and the more I give, 

the less that I have.

But I'd give the rest,

I like to think,

willingly,

at least I think...

I know I'd trade,

at the very least,

a whole decade

for your lemonade.

Because I feel like a child more than ever.

I've seen the most beauteous things

in my dreams

who knows, they may be made

of future things.

I got my iPod stolen. Again. Shit, at least they cost less now.

Oh, and I went to the book store today to see if I got the job or was on my way to getting it and I got turned down by an old stuttering nerd man. Cool.

Then I proceeded to apply to the party store, Fashion Bug, and Game Stop. If I get the job at Game Stop, I'll be so fucking surprised. I only applied at Fashion Bug because it was there and I got a pair of shoes there a long time ago. It's mostly cheap clothes but some of it is cute and I just want a job, dammit. I actually want to work at the party store, though. They have costumes and balloons and I would have fun there.

Got home and realized I have 2 things to write for tomorrow, then didn't do it.

But I finished one just 5 minutes ago, and I'll do the other one to help me go to sleep. It's supposed to be an essay about what made me who I am today. I'm really not sure.

It was mainly from moving so many places and changing my personality accordingly. Every move was a new opportunity to make a better version of me. Whether it was changing how I looked or how I acted or my laugh, there was always something I wanted to touch up.

Fitting in is a big deal when you're going to a school where people have known each other since kindergarten.

Anyways, bedtime.

  I just have to say that right now I have the weirdest pressure in my head. Like, it's in my eyes, but it's in my nose too because I have an up-and-coming pimple forming on the end. And I have a weird feeling in my teeth because I just woke up from a nap and I think I clench my teeth when I sleep.

  Jenny Lewis' new single Acid Tongue is online and I've been listening to it over and over again. It's probably the closest to country that I really like besides Johnny Cash. 

  I'm starting to plan out my portfolio for AP Art. Mostly what I'm actually planning is my concentration section. In my mind I have black and white portraits. I don't want them pretty looking or staged. I just want several people to stand and look like them. My problem will be getting the people. I don't know if I want a couple pictures of the same person. It would look like I couldn't get a good enough final shot. Or that I didn't give myself enough time so I had to use one of my previous shots. Anyways, Collin is interested in helping out and his look is perfect for it. Until I decide to get started, I'm just going to check out portraits by other people.

I havn't been on the computer the first three days of school. I don't want to recount a lot so all I'll say is that I'm liking my teachers a lot. Classical studies, government, english, and art should be really good.

I finished The Once and Future King and The Little Prince and I'm about to start on an Anne Rice novel and Beowulf. I really like how the Old English sounds a lot more Germanic and northern than modern English does. This is the first I've been able to see that it's a Germanic language rather than Latin based. I may rush through it a little though because I'm feeling a reading fever.

I'll probably be updating this more; I don't feel like recounting the monotony of the first few days.