AT LEAST you weren't a total waste of fucking time.

Wait- oh yeah.

new year

It's been a frustrating week. Hopefully I can have some sort of clarification by tonight or tomorrow. I'm just sick of being left in the dark.

Ummm definitely setting some resolutions for the new year but I don't have my ducks lined up yet.

-get all my college apps in

-be more chilled. i've been wound so tight lately.

-always wait 2 days before making a big decision. i jump to conclusions and act on my emotions too much.

-keep in touch with my family and buy some cute fucking stationary to do it with.

-write all my appointments and assignments down.

-STOP PROCRASTINATING.

- do my 365 days.

I don't know what's going on. I don't know how to figure it out. I don't know if I'm thinking too hard. I don't know if I'm overreacting (probably).

I'm having panic attacks, I think.

I can't remember times where I've felt much happier or felt more anticipation.

It's weird that we connected so fast.

Need to do my govt. homework soon so that i can go to bed earlier. I'm so damn tired all the time and it makes it hard to go to work when I feel like passing out. Not to mention, I keep taking random naps in classes. Yesterday I fell asleep on a music stand in thinking skills.

Plus I think the reason for the colds I've been getting is that I'm not sleeping enough and not getting enough water. So I started downing water and tonight I'll try getting to bed on time. I'm trying for 11. Woo.