God.

I thought this week would end better.

I can't even count on my parents to stay together.

Can't even count on apparently christlike men to stay faithful.

This is a whole new low I can't even comprehend.

I can't look him in the eye and I can't stop listening to them talk.

I've never heard my mom sound so small before.

Fuck yes United Blood the weekend before my birthday.

Saturday night was sweet. Right Idea did great plus they did a cover of "In My Eyes" which I was really stoked on. Favorite was probably Overload. Fuck yes. PLUS got to see Curt before his birthday so that lightened my mood a lot, since this whole week has just been a giant black cloud following me around.

Finally got a record player today- found it for $6 and speakers for $4. Works great and also has a couple tape players, an 8-track player, and a radio in it.

LOVE every time

Been reading, sleeping, and studying a lot lately. Thankfully I've also been motivated to work on my portfolio so that's coming along nicely.
Upcoming:

-chemistry and Stat midterms

-deadline for VCU arts

-youthcrew show/Curt's birthday

Most weekends I've been up in the DC area. Unfortunately since I havn't been driving in the city I got lost when I made a wrong turn. I had to call Curt to get directions out of there like my compass. I think I'll stick to the Metro from now on because parking is a bitch, too.

Debate Wednesday went fine. Won the first, but lost the 2nd and 3rd by 1 or 2 points :/

Had a midterm today which I aced.

My Bloody Valentine sucked as far as acting and story goes but it was scary as shit. That's not saying much  though because I'm so jumpy.

I've been staying up pretty late this week, mostly for phone calls but they unwind me and keep me posi. I don't mind staying up for those. Plus, I try to sleep more over the weekend. 4 day weekend and my mom is coming here for a few weeks on sunday. yeee

Hanging with Curt tomorrow- I'm going to pick him up from the metro. Because I suck at planning things, idk what we'll do but whatever.

On a super positive note: got a group for beach week. Now I can't wait for graduation- even more than before. I just want it to be hot out with lots of sun. And I want to swimmm.

Sent transcripts for VCU and Temple today. I'm pretty sure I'll get into VCU with my SATs alone, but you never know and I'm so paranoid anyways. I know my mom will have the heart attack of her life if I'm not heading out to college. In fact, so will I. I couldn't stand to be in Woodbridge when I knew I had a chance to do all I could to leave.

Not that Woodbridge is so bad, but people get stuck here. There's a window of time and then nothing. You can't see outside the city limits.

Whatever I'm meant for, that's what will happen. I have faith in fate.

Excellent find looking for something to nom on at the grocery store. Got the best blood oranges and ate 3 of them.

   I skipped out on a bunch of stuff today. I wasn't feeling great so I skipped conditioning for lacrosse which in theory is not the smartest thing to do. Also I ducked Alexa because I don't want to be her debating partner tomorrow... oops? But I got bombarded with phone calls- at least 2 from every person on the debate team and 5 from Frank- of people telling me to call Alexa because apparently I WILL be her partner tomorrow. I have neither memorized the resolution nor researched but we'll see how it goes. I hate debates about alternative fuel :/

   Going to see pygmylush on Saturday at positive youth fest so that should be fun. Plus I'm going with Curt soo that makes it better. It's crazy how much we have in common without meaning to. I'm just glad this has played out so well, whatever this is.

 The new year has been a lot better than I expected. I guess it's right that how you spend your new year's is how your year will go.

  This week has gone really well. Besides doing better in classes I'm hanging with Nadia a lot more. Plus lacrosse is starting soon so that's going to keep me busy in a good way. :)

  But yesterday. Went to meet Curt in Arlington so we could hang out. We ended up going to Chinatown for a little while- he has an infinitely better sense of direction than I do. Then went to Adams Morgan to eat and go to Smash. We spent like 45 minutes in there and there was no talking for the first 20 because we got so absorbed in looking through everything. Afterwards was just us trying to drag out the last bit of time we had before we had to go. Luckily that area has a lot of blocks to walk around and waste time on. I think staying on the metro when he left was the suckiest part.

BUT picked up some Minor Threat, Jawbreaker, and Wheelbite.

Also, got the Rocky Horror Soundtrack so it's got me wanting to go to another showing of it since it's been a couple years.

umm first post of the year.

New year's was really great. Probably one of the best ones I've had. For once I actually went out and did something myself. Met a few people which was cool and said hi to a couple I met the Friday before. :)

Now that school is back in my daily life I'm about to feel the weight of the AP classes coming down. I've thankfully quit my job though, so... yay.

Can't wait for Friday and Saturday. I love having things to do.