I keep getting sucked in over and over again and then let down. So why so I keep doing it? Because I think something will change. In a mathematical world, this will keep happening over and over again, so why do I try to rationalize and say some other result will happen when the beginning pattern is the same? Mathematically, this will never work unless there is a change in the beginning of the equation.

But the human brain is a most complex thing. It can break out of patterns.

I suppose I'm depending on the psychological aspects to justify my pathetic attempt at getting mine. God I suck. Or God is completely against me on this. Which I totally understand. Duh.

Something cute to offset my stupid.